Ode to Bipolar!

I actually feel blessed to have bipolar sometimes. Being depressed sucks, but I think I'm realizing that it's a way for your body to force itself to relax after a great high! I truly feel like I'm on top of the world sometimes and if I could just figure out how to keep the motivation to finish all the projects I start, I would be so grateful. I didn't really believe that it was a real thing, even though I always joked about it, until Preston was born and I have actually been able to see the distinct changes from up to down and back up. It has taken a long time to learn how to cope with it and I think that God really gave me this, what I used to believe as a really big trial, as a great blessing. If I can figure out how to just use my highs to start and completely finish one big project, instead of using it to spend excess money and start a lot of things that will never get done and use my lows, not to hate life and feel overwhelmed by everything around me, but to just relax and let myself recharge I could do a lot of good for myself and others. I'm sure it doesn't make a lot of sense to most people (I don't expect it to) but I am so grateful for being blessed to have the best family and friends in the world to have supported and helped me through some really challenging times in my life. I love you all so much!